Reminiscing

6:36 AM | 0 comments

TODAY IS A BLAST!!!

wow! I DISCOVERED SOMETHING REALLY NEW ABOUT ME!

( Audience: What is it?? )

The GREATEST FEELING THAT I DONT WANT TO FEEL is.................

The BLOATED Feeling!

haha. :D

Ever Since that day I was able to eat EVERYTHING I wanted to my heart's content.

I PROMISED myself to fill up my stomach ONLY up to 80% of my Stomach

(wahahaha. as if you can gauge)

Well, Yes, dear audience, I can feel iiiittt..

hahaha

ANYWAY,

as I said this day has been a TOTAL blast!

so, Im tremendously TIRED

I cant share the whole experience now.

But I will.

tomorrow.

hehe

ayt!

6:12 AM | 0 comments

SONG # 1!!!

(This blog is for today. Since the previous id for yesterday. haha)

I just want to share this song for today.
I wonder why this?? hmmmm...

Thinking of YOU

Katy Perry

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest oneI still got the seed

You said move on

Where do I goI guess second best

Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer

In the middle of winter

Like a hard candy

With a surprise center

How do I get better

Once I've had the best

You said there's

Tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips

I taste your mouth

He pulled me in

I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into...

You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes

Oh won't you walk through

And bust in the door

And take me away

Oh no more mistakes

Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

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How Tuesday Went.

5:25 AM | 0 comments

Napapablog ako dahil sa isang tao..
=))

HTW

yeah I rested for a day..

didn't touch the comp.. I felt so lazy to do so..

hehe..nopee..actually I felt kinda sick..

Okay, so..

this is hang-over watching The Soup.

hahahaha... =))

I only slept 3-5am yesterday,

and that made my head like being hit by a hammer for the entire morning..

So as soon as I got home, I slept.. that was 3-6pm..

When I woke up, I got down to the office room to get some of my stuff..

As I entered,

I looked at the computer like it was kind of a villain in a old western country movie..

Each of us stared, gazed on the other's eye.

the wind blowing. the birds took their flight.

Then that soundtrack started to play...

You know the usual soundtrack played in this kind of scene..

Turning my back...ready to pull out my gun... slowly, slowly,

a housemate passed through and turned it on!

OK, so Game OVER. Back to reality.

Went up to my room. Cuddled for a moment (for I was pretentiously sick.. haha)

then.. turned on the radio...

I didn't want to do anything. I didn't want to read, I didnt want to watch, to eat even (ironically I ate a lot.. boink!)...

So I ended up texting my fingers off.. haha..

So who were I texting:

1.Brother 1: So your the one who's broken?
Carl: No, I'm not. Mended but not perfectly.
Brother: enk! EMO!

2. Brother2: here in the apartment now.
Carl: OK. How's the review?
Brother 2: uhhh,,, I actually played DOTA.
Carl: Oh, right! So you think it'll help you sa Bar? Ok, practice more! haha =))

3. Brother 3: Sorry ha
Carl: for what?
Brother 3: wala lang. :)
Carl: ok.ok
Brother 3: :)

4. Carla: Tol, may tatlong exam ako
Carl: Ok,Godbless!
Carla: uy, may prob ako kay ***
Carl: Akala ko ba may exam ka? Magreview ka na lang kaya muna?
Carla: sige na nga

5. Carl. and someone
6. Carl. and another one
7. Carl. and the next one

Ayt, so I think that how it all went yesterday.. after texting till midnight..

I had slept. and amazingly,, for a reason I don't know.. it is the first night I slept so peacefully.
Thanks to ONE up there..

...who is HE?...

that's a secret. ;)

when youve done something that you REALLY HATE!

7:24 AM | 0 comments

I HATE IT!!!

Ok, so this blog would be just full of rants.
Let's see...
Random Order.

1. I really dont like layouting blogs or whatsoever.
its so stressful.
why bother?
when in fact i just want to blog.. eh... right?
>>i did it because Kyla said so.
she's not my boss or anything
neither is she my mom
nor my professor, who I need to please
it's just that it's nakakainis na.. hahahaha.. Love Kyla! :D

2. Why do I need to report on the Plot of a story in class that everyone read?
What are we? elementary students??
Need to know the introduction, point of attact, complication, conflict, denoument, resolution
of a short story?
Come'on everyone read the story (or must have read)
and everyone understood... (I presume)
>>Sir JPM, could we just go straight to the discusion!?
*I havent done my part of the reporting yet. gaaahh!!

3. Why must I learn about Human Evolution over and over again when I don't believe in it?
What's the matter with you people?!
I get your point,, You guys come from APEs ok,, so why the need of spreading your alamat?!

4. Why should I be the one to convince those two orientees?
OK, I'm Ms. FC head.....
.......................no point in ranting on this.................... I lose! :))

5. Why can't just people accept some failures in their lives and need consoling every second of the day. I'm your Friend but PLEASE, it's not only You who have angsts.

.........but I still Love you Friend.. Go on. :)
=))

6. Why are some people so addicted to *a**k**i**n*m*g*?!
I'm affected by your untoward attitude.
PLS.PLS. Behave yourself.
I could get you in jail.
=))

7. Why can't just all people be satisfied with what they have?
I strongly encourage you to read "THE CASE OF THE PRISON-MONGER"
by Hama Tuma
"Great Expectations make Frustrated Men"

8. I am not the Keeper of my Brother...

9. Why can't just Greek love Greeks?! Why so much hatred?!
So0o0o0o much exclusivity!

10. Why do those people think they KNOW who I am?
well.after all..

They WONT bother if your NOT SOMEONE!.

showbiz

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LABLYP

1:38 AM | 5 comments

Katatapos ng Church Service at

Nagkausap kami ng isang highschool bestfriend ko sa pamamagitan ng teknolohiya.

Pangalanan na lang natin siyang Carla.

Classmate ko na siya simula elementary.

Ngunit nung highschool na lang kami naging magkabarkada at naging matalik na magkaibigan.

Yun ay sa kadahilanang, akala nami'y ang aming personalidad ay lubos na kabaliktaran ng isa.

Para sa akin si Carla at ang 'kanyang' grupo ung maiingay sa class.

Sila ung medyo bully sapagkat ang kanilang mga mommy ang maeksena sa school.

Kumbaga Stage-mothers at sila naman ang Stage-kids.

Ultimo mga lalaki napapatahimik nila sa kanilang pagsigaw pa lamang ng pangalan nila.

Dagli-dagling lumalayo ang mga schoolmates ko noon kapag nariyan na sila.

Mga bullies kung tatawagin.

Nabanggit din sa akin ni Carla kung ano ang tingin nila sa akin at sa 'aking' grupo.
Sabi niya ay, nung elementary, kami daw yung tipong 'masyadong babae'
at laging nag-eenglish-english.
Kapag manamit ay pinagsisigawang marami kaming alam sa fashion nung araw
Ang aming grupo daw ay maarte at mahilig pag-usapan ang mga lalake.
Kinikilig sa mga munting bagay lamang at sadyang mahilig tumawa at ngumisi.
Ganoon daw ang aming grupo.

Sa kaalaman naming ito, hindi ito pumigil sa amin para maging kaibigan ang isa't-isa nung highschool.

Mga labing-lima kami mula sa elementary school na nasa I-Carnation nun, hindi naman sa napilitan kami kaya kami ang nagkasama ngunit sadyang tadhana nga lang siguro kaya kami ang naging magkabarkada at hanggang ngayon ay matalik na magkaibigan.

Lumipas ang panahon, at
marami ng nangyari sa bawat isa, maraming kaalaman na naidagdag sa isipan, maraming
pag-uusap na siyang pinagmulan ng maraming kaisipan, mga relasyon na nabuo at nawasak.
Lahat ng ito na hinubog sa aming katauhan.

Nagsimula ang pag-uusap ng aking mahal na kaibigan sa kamustahan.

"Ok lang. Ikaw?"
"Ok lang din."

Yan ang karaniwang heading ng aming conversation.

Hindi nagtagal nang siya ay nangamusta nanaman ng status ng aking "lablyp" (lovelife)
(haay, isang salitang ayaw na ayaw kong banggitin)
Ang walang-kamatayang sagot ko ang siyang ibinigkas

"Wala akong ganun." sabay tawa at naniniwalang mangungulit siya ngunit hindi ako pipilitin pagkalipas ng kunting pangungulit.

Ngunit sa pagkakataong ito, hindi ganoon ang nangyari. Bakas sa kanyang tono ng pananalita ang dismaya, hindi inis, ngunit kalungkutan na nagsasabing hindi ko na siya kinukwentuhan ng kahit ano ukol dito simula ng 4thyear.

Ewan ko nga ba, ako man sa sarili ko ay ayoko ng abalahin pa ang sarili para magkwento.

Hindi na ako tulad ng batang nakilala niya nung elementary. Sabi nga nya, ang mga babaeng puro lalaki na lamang ang pinagkwekwentuhan.

Ako ay kabaliktaran na ngayon. Siguro dahil sa... incidenteng iyon.

Binanggit ko na lahat ng mga taong alam kong sa kanyang judgment ay involve dun nga sa tinatawag niyang "lovelife"ko.
Nang tapos ko nang sabihin sa kanya, ang pakiramadam ko'y nagpasa ako ng mahigit-kumulang na kinseng resume.
May mga pangalan, importanteng impormasyon, mga iba ay may litrato ang iba ay wala.

Sa bawat pagtanggap niya ng isang resume, nagsabi siya ng mga comments na hindi ko lubusang hinayaan manatili sa aking pag-iisip, pinakinggan ko lamang at pagkatapos ay sadyang lumipad sa kawalan. Pagkatapos makita ang lahat, ngumisi siya at sinabing..

"Collect and collect then select ha?" patawa niyang sinabi
"Tama!" at ako ay tumawa rin.

Ngunit alam kong hindi totoo iyon at kailanman ay hindi gagawin.

Hanggang sa tumunton na kami sa isang tanong na walang sawa nilang ibinabato sa akin

"Bakit mo ba ayaw magka-Boyfriend? Magkaroon ng stable na relationship"
sinabi niya sa tonong para bang first time niya lang tinanong ngunit sa katotohona'y higit na sa bilang na aking maalala.

Iniba ko ang sagot sa pagkakataong ito, isang masmalinaw na sagot kumpara sa mga nakaraan.
Sa pinaka-inocenteng tono, sabi ko ay

"Dahil hindi ako pang-ganun."

natahimik siya at pagkaraan ng kunting panahon

napangisi siya at sinabing
"may ganun? so ano yung lahat ng mga yun, fling-fling lang? ano ka ba? Walang mawawala sayo pag susubukan mo lang. At paano mo malalaman kung sino nga ba ang para talaga sayo kung hindi mo susubukan?"

Gusto kong ipaliwanang na
MERON.
Merong nawawala sayo sa bawat
relasyon na pinapasukan mo at naglalaho.
Ngunit ayoko ng magpaliwanag pa,
sawang-sawa na ako.
Hindi ko na rin nahanap pa ang lakas
para ipaliwanag na may darating para sa iyo, hindi mo na kailangan pang pumasok
sa isang relasyon para malaman kung siya na nga ba ang para sa iyo o hindi.
Gusto ko ding sabihing hayaan na lang natin
ang tadhana ang magparating sa atin
ng taong iyon.
Huwag natin siyang tuksuhin para lamang madaliin niya ang
proseso.
Dahil tayo lamang ay nagsasayang ng oras, lakas at panahon.
Kung
HINDI pa, hindi pa.
Bata pa lamang tayo, marami pang mga bagay sa mundo na nais
magpakilala sa atin. At sa kadahilanang pilit nating hinahanap ang taong
iyon, nakakaligtaan natin ang mga magagandang bagay na siya sanang magtutungo
sa atin sa kanya.
Marami pa akong gustong sabihin, at alam kong kukulangin pa sa mahigit
bente-kwatrong oras pag ako ay lubusang nagpaliwanag.
Laging nag-uumapaw ang mga ideya sa
aking isipan pag kami ay humahantong sa ganitong usapan.

Ngunit ako ay pagod na.

Ang lakas ko upang sabihin ang mga ito ay ubos na.

Wala na.

Ako ay tumahimik na lamang.
at sa kabila ng lahat ng malakas na apoy sa aking dibdib.
ang nasabi lamang ng munti kong bibig ay

"...dahil ayoko pa carla,,, ayoko pa..."

Labels: quintessence

HUMANITIES 1 sa UP Manila and it's hidden objective

1:20 AM | 0 comments

Ang aking unang blog sa wikang Filipino.

Narito sa aking lap ngayon, ang papel kung saan nakasulat ang mga

(*commercial: nagtanong pa ako sa mga tao sa YM kung ano ang filipino ng objective. haha)

layunin ng kursong Humanities 1 sa UP Manila ni Ser JPaul Manzanilla

at ito ang nakalagay.

General Objectives:

to explore and analyze imaginative literature in the various forms and discover the elements of artistry that characterize each literary genre.
to examine representatives world views in literary texts and encourage students to expand their own perspectives especially in light of Philippines realities.

Specific Objectives:

Integrative study of elements of each literary genre and the content of the literary form
Discussion of literary and aesthetic values and how these are imbricated in moral, economic, social, political and cultural values
Analysis of theme centering on numerous issues of subject formation by focusing on the discourse of literary representation

Ayan, binasa mo ba ang mga layunin na iyon?

Dapat hindi mo na binasa

dahil sa katotohanan ay ito lamang yun

"magbasa ka!
At intindihin mong mabuti at ng malaliman ang lahat ng binabasa mo."
Hindi pa ako tapos sa kursong ito.
Meron pang nalalabing humigit kumulang na tatlong linggo.
Ngunit sa nakikita ko ngayon ito ang nais iparating sa akin ng HUMANITIES 1.
Simula ng mattangap ko ang mahigit sa isang ream na babasahin, ito ang kasalukuyang ibinubugbog sa araw-araw kong pamumuhay ngayon.
ang pagbabasa.
Tinignan ko nga naman ang aking nakaraan at madami akong naalala na siyang nagpapatunay ng kahalagahan ng pagbabasa.
Ang aking nanay na sumisigaw bawat oras na kami ay nasa bahay at walang ginagawang takdang-aralin o gawaing bahay
"You READ!!! It's better than watching cartoons or playing!"
"eh it's boring naman kasi!!"
"Ay naku! You READ kitdi!"
At kaya naman, sa gulang na siyam, nabasa ko na ang buong set ng Childcraft Encylopedia na siyang dinala ng impostor na Santa Claus (hinire ng aking mommy at daddy nung araw) sa aming bahay nun.
Pati ang Groiler Encyclopedia, ngunit dahil sa murang kaisipan, hindi lahat yun ay nabasa ko ang mga pahina lamang kung saan nakinitaan ko ng magaganda at matitingkad na mga litrato. (malamang diba, dahil kung hindi ako ay isang henyo na ngayon).
At marami pang sari-saring libro. Tulad na lamang ng Nancy Drew, Hardy Boys, Sherlock Holmes, Seventeen, Diksyunaryo, Teksbook, Inventions, at marami pang iba.
Ako ay palabasa. Isang batang tunay na kakambal ng libro. Ngunit ng ako ay sampung taon na,sadyang naglaho ng mabilis ang aking katauhang iyon.
Hindi ko alam kung anung nagyari, pinipilit ko siyang tawaging muli ngunit, sa bawat pagbalik niya, siya ay bumibisita lamang.
at NGAYON sa tulong ng espiritu ng kursong HUMANITIES 1., siya ay muling nabubuhay..at sa aking laking gulat maligaya ko siyang tinatanggap at pinapanatili kailanman.
Kaya MARAMING SALAMAT HUM 1!!!

layout.layout.layout!!

1:01 AM | 2 comments

waaahhh!!!

ive been editing my layout for almost 3 hours now.
this is exactly what i didnt want.
customizing pages..

all i wanted was to write.to blog.and nothing else. or nothing much of another.
but then. OK.
kyla told me to do so,,,,

then i tried

and see where it got me.. to the original template.

hahaha

well.. i'll get some help soon..

and

again..

we'll see. :D

Notice to the Public

12:03 AM | 0 comments

It's not a poem

as the author (ehem.ehem) says

it's a Short Fictional Story

charlyn lalwet: visit my blogspot
ok?!

mao pineda: i did

galing m magsulat ah

poem b ung start?

charlyn lalwet: ung pinakamahaba?
nope

mao pineda: oo

anu un?

charlyn lalwet: fiction short story
hehe

mao pineda: i was thinking it was a poem kasi parang ang independent ng mga lines from each other

it looks like a poem! hahaha

charlyn lalwet: its only centered that's why it looks like poem
haha
it's a fiction story
one that reflected what happened to me for the past 2 months

mao pineda: hnd. parang poem tlga kasi hnd xa flowy na parang story. parang poen xa na choppy pero nagkwekwento

ung ganun

charlyn lalwet: ah
i knoiw na why you say its a poem
because it's lyrical
yung parang it you won't really get what it truly means
kasi it's not literal

mao pineda: hnd. ung structure. kasi db pag story parang nagfloflow. tgnan m ung sau parang independent bodies ung bawat line. para sakin. kaya un mukha xang poem para sakin

ung first part parang story

sa middle parang poem

ok.

what do you think??

a doze of my everyday fiction. "THIS BEGGAR"

6:50 AM | 0 comments

He was about only three meters away.

I couldnt help but to glance at him for a moment.

He had been in that place, succumbed for maybe years.

It is where he finds joy, contentment and peace.

As I look at the features of his body..it lead me to a conclusion that he hadn't eaten for days, or even weeks.

But inspite of this, He had that strength, that vigor to look so closely to people who had passed by his own place.

He intricately examined each one who waited in that waiting area.

And at the moment he stares at one person. Believe me, that person won't pass by leaving without pain and hurt.

It's been almost three hours since the time I've been waiting for that magical ride.

The ride that will bring me to the majestic palace of my very own Prince, my special One, my Love.

One who I hadn't known yet, but I will, when He comes.

It will be my heart speaking from then, and not my mouth.

It his heart and mine that would converse, and will just take the embodiment of our souls together and bring us to that palace.

The palace that He prepared so long ago.

From the time I felt my first heartbeat in this world.

For the meantime, a lot had spoken to me.

They've used the language of Humans.

the one that is cognitive.

For the past thirty minutes, three guys spoken to me.

I enjoyed their company as I was waiting.

They've spoken much about their life, telling tales of their own, adventures, experiences they've gone through, they spoke about dreams, ambitions, fears, losses, victories, hope and love.

Each one tried to talk to my dear heart.

But it never replied.

I wasn't hurying at all.

I enjoyed their company, they enjoyed and loved mine.

I gigled when they joked.

I laughed loudly when their stories are hilarious.

I dropped a tear when they were sad.

I shared their sorrows and pain.

They were friends to me.

But I wasn't so to them.

I felt and knew I was more.

but still my heart isn't just awake.

It was only in that thirty minutes that the person at the wall, started staring at me.

and after that thirty minutes that he stood and spoke.

I wanted to draw out respect for this man, but it was so difficult for me as he started to speak.

He started, this "speech' of his, by saying:

I have become just one of that species.

that species of women, that have been despised by people that who think that in their purest conscience they are innocent, hurting no one in the cause of love.

I became that person who've become so low, being friendly to everyone and not turning my back on anyone who needs help.

I became that girl who graced myself to men that I barely knew, feeling that they are damaged and needed to be fixed.

I was a person who was full of paradox;

had high standards, but embraced the low

had unreachable happiness, but giggled at the lamest jokes

had desire for a lot of things, but was satisified with just a meager.

There were a lot of things he babbled about me.

At first I was shocked,amused at times, but usually angered.

This man, after all, just saw me for only thirty inutes.

I know and I believe that for only that, I could ay everything he had spoken about me was a lie.

and indeeduntil then...

that beggar starved and I waited

I still AM

9:27 AM | 0 comments

Ive been contemplating about my 'chepers status'

(if you dont know this..well, you must know.haha)

anyway,, back to the serious mode..

after all. these chepers around.

I could still say I am not non-sawi.

there is still that element..

until then..

amp!

oh well.

they say.,

don't jump into conclusions

don't judge a book by its cover

i say.,

don't say you know all when your still at the beginning,and haven't seen the end...

you get what i mean..

haaay

(filipino translation of sigh.haha)

darn. :P

Liberation

9:09 AM | 1 comments

ok.this is it.

haha..

i really love my friends' blogs..

sige na nga.. ill name them..

KYLA and JOANNE.

ayan.. (i know how you loved publicity. *wink)

You both are so cute forever!!

These two when they write..

are like the two characters in the story I just read yesterday..

'Red Wall'by Sara Chin.

Joanne would be Jill

Kyla would be the 'I' (our professor said we could only just assume it is Sara Chin)

One is so expressive of her thoughts in quite a formal way..

a galan way. i may say. not so direct. you must discover things as you read.

the other so freely focusing on minor things..

telling stories that goes beyond what her tongue can tell.

her thoughts screaming

truly advocating the immensity of what she really feels..

so who is who??

see for yourself.

doesnt really matter much.

haha

Liberation indeed!

Found!

8:33 AM | 0 comments

Great!

Finally, something id really enjoy online.
its because of two close friends..
why i am able to blog in here right now..
well,, more because of one.
i wanted to start blogging ever since..
but
when i had my multiply account.
it came to me.. that it was somehow a strenuous thing to do.
with the contacts and all..
it wasnt really a place you would free yourself.
you know, a very prominent reason why people want to blog is that because they want to find a place that they would just express themselves
scribble some notes into air, permamnently etching it there.
in multiply, it just isnt so..

i knew about blogspot for long..
but didn't bother much..
until thess close friends indeed opened it up to me once again.
and now here i am..'writing'
i know for a fact that id get tired of all these 'social netork sites'..as i call it..
friendster, multiply, facebook..and such..
but i think.. this is one that i wouldnt get tired of..
it doesnt at all fall under that bracket even.

maybe this is that 'place' i could truly etch my thoughts in the air..
and again

well.,
lets see.. :D

Labels: Carl, Charlyn, first time, Hyacinth