félicité éternelle

SHOWBIZ. hate to be in it. cant live without it.

2009-10-30T10:05:00.000-07:00

Even though how much you try to stay out of it. As long as you are that kind of person it loves to bug., you cant do anything. Just Be strong. It wouldn't get less as times pass by. Everything would just get more complicated. What you can only do is outwit it every time it points it arrows on you.

Oh Rumors!

Oh Life!

oh you. yes, you. whoever you are behind all these.

You just cant get enough huh???

-Brooke.

CAN'T CATCH UP

2009-09-30T08:39:00.000-07:00

Whoah!!
For months I totally forgot about this blog. haha
thanks Kyla, Yes, I noticed super linalangaw na nga
anyway, I'll try to keep this updated while we have our 1week dreaded vacation.

Monday-no classes--- was NICE! :D
Tuesday-no classes--- waas OK
Wed-Sat-no classes?!--- wait a minute. this isn't suppose to be happening!!! amp!

well, at least that was my reaction for a few hours but then realizing the damage typhoon Ondoy has brought to our country, no classes til sat is just right.

Many communities were devastated, they should be helped, we must ACT.
No excuses. Students WE HAVE TIME.

Still saddening, these catastrophe, but oh well. Sabi nga sa kanta ng kanta ng Jesus Culture

"All things work together for our (my) good."

All we need to do is to trust God why all these happened. :D

Anyway, more things to post tom. Time to rest.

Relief Drive volunteer signing out. :D

AM BACK!!!

2009-06-02T08:47:00.000-07:00

MOOD SWINGS!!

I'm telling you, writing blogs is so like mood swings..
well, at least for me. haha

Anyway, rundown of "WHAT HAPPENED NEXT?" in my-life-as-written-in-blogs phase.

WELL.

May 23
>5:30 am
got home in baguio from manila just in time for my parents wedding anniversary which was later on postponed din lang pala.
>9:00am
washed my clothes
>5:00pm
went to church and watched a variety show by Korean mission group
then dinner with family and the Bugnosen, our dearest family friend. :D

May 24
went to church, youth fellowship then home to lola's house meeting the usual tita's and tito's and baby cousins Charisse and Josh.

May 25
celebrated mom and dad's wedding anniversary at home :D

May 26
Riverview Resort with cherished barkadaers..
*Adz and Kirsten missing*
LOOKIE at our Pictures!

May 27
off to church to fix the youth corner then prater meeting at Bugnosen's house.

then I and younger sister overnight there as requested by the Bugnosen kids, Claire and Jessa our 'twins' *wink! :P

May 28
DVD marathon, karaoke, eat, DVD marathon, karaoke, eat, home to our house.
Sila naman overnight sa amin since Mom and Dad went to Tagaytay for a semi-honeymoon trip. hahaha!

May 29
Older brothers with us at home.
DVD marathon, karaoke, eat, DVD marathon, karaoke, eat, Claire and Jessa home to their house. :D

May 30
I forgot what happened na. HAHAHAHA!

May 31
Church. I was the speaker sa Youth Fellowship,
Some pictures HERE! :D

June 1
by 4pm our dad told us to pack because were going to go riverview resort for night swimming by 5pm with the Bugnosen family.

by 6pm were still on the road.

by 7pm, we reached the destination and decided to spent the night there.
which was so unexpected so, we, kids are unprepared. pero carry lang. hahahaha :D

LOOKIE at the pictures! :p

June 2
This was an ultra mega skin color change day for me. I'm so so dark-skinned na.. or at least i consider myself that.
hehe. :D

Swimmy swam from 7am to 11am.

then depart by the Bugnosen family, back home to rest by 12pm, home by 2pm. (dami pa kasi stop over)

slept until 4pm.

then dinner at Yellow Cab SM.
Dan's treat. :D

buy lappytoppy and dvd player and food.

MY MOM IS SUCH A ONE-MAN-PAPARAZZI!
hahaha :P

HOME. HOME, HOME by 9:30.

and that's it.

GAAAAHHH!!! Body pain. :(

hehehe :D

FRUSTRATIONS

2009-05-13T04:42:00.000-07:00

FRUSTRATIONS. FRUSTRATIONS. FRUSTRATIONS.
Anung gagawain mo sa mga ito?

..and I'm unli again. why? because I got no change for my fare kanina. amp! soo much for abstinence. I want sana to be disconnected 24 ever this may. :)) but ohwell.

ETO pang grade school tula.
nagkukunwari lang eh.
hehe :D

Sa aking pananahimik.
Marami akong naisip.
mga bagay na pilit linilimot
sapagkat wala ng magagawa
hindi na mapipilit pa

Ito'y mga pangarap
na muntikan na'y naabot
ng isang batang nasubukan

haaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyy.. dont have the patience now and the creative juices that should come along.
say it right out na lang. hehe

so yun nga.

nagmumuni-muni ako for the past days..
then my dreams before struck me.
Yung mga "I chould have been... but I chose this... so... cant do it anymore.."

Una.
sana sa PisCi.
pero masyado pa raw akong bata para malayo sa parents.
ANDYAN na eh. PWEDE. pero ayun sa hometown science highschool na lang. :(
*pero hindi ko naman masyadong nireregret toh. haha

Pangalawa.
SPA Theatre/Vocals sana.
Pero ayun kailangan sundan ang yapak ng mga kuya
at mas madaming intellectual harnessing daw sa Sci (which was true naman)
Pero syempre, ung passion ko, ang entablado. and teatro. :))
*grrrrrr!! if only I could have both. buti na lang may extra curriculars. nakapag theatre kahit papano. :D

Pangatlo.
Ang aking minamahal na Bayolin.
si Alex dear. Kawawa naman ang buddy ko ever since grade 5. Tuluyan ko na atanf hindi ko mahaharap.
Nasa bahay na lang siya lagi.
Naiwan ko pa sa dorm.
*huhuhu. i want to reunite and be happy with you.

ayan. sharing lang. nakakalungkot pero ohwell
may chance pa kaya ung 2nd and 3rd ko?
sana.:((

The PowerPuff Girls

2009-05-10T06:20:00.000-07:00

BEGINNING OF SUCCESS

TODAY is a VERY SPECIAL DAY

Not only because had our celebration of gratitude to our dear

MOTHERS

But also because,

this is the first day.

Bubbles, Blossom, and Buttercup met

FINALLY!

to decide upon the city's future.

hahaha.

seriously now.

Sisters Joanne, Millie and I

finally met, sat together and shared ideas

on how our very own GreekO

should run this coming schoolyear. :D

It took us 5 hours to discuss.

Well, ok, that includes some unnecessary chit-chats and all.

But the important thing is we surprisingly came up with a great blueprint in the end

Though this is not final yet, and is still up for discussion in our meeting tom with other sisses.

I believe so, we've done a Good Job!

And so with that,

KUDOS!!!

to Millie and Joanne! :P

We even managed to have a WONDERFUL SURPRISE for our fellow Sisses!

Can't wait for tomorrow and the days of Success to come!

TODAY'S PLAYLIST

2009-05-09T06:28:00.000-07:00

AMONG ALL my MEN

THIS SONG IS FOR

TO WHOM WHO IS WORTHY

Please Dont Leave Me

by Pink

Da da da dada da da da

Da da da da da

I dont know if i can yell any louder,

How many times have i kicked you outer here?

Or said something insulting?

Da da da da da

I can be so mean when i wanna be,

I am capable of really anything,

I could cut you into pieces,

But my heart is,

broken.

Da da da da da

Please dont leave me [x2]

I always say how i dont need you

But its always gonna come right back to this

Please dont leave me

How did i become so obnoxious,

What is it with you that makes me act like this,

Ive neva been this nasty,

Cant you tell that this is just a contest,

The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest,

But baby i dont mean it,

I mean it, I promise

Da da da da da

Please dont leave me [x2]

I always say how i dont need you

But its always gonna come right back to this

Please dont leave me

I forgot to say outloud,

How beautiful you really are to me,

I cant be without,

Your my perfect little punching bag,

And i need you,Im sorry.

Da da da dada da da da

Da da da da daPlease,

Please dont leave me

Baby please dont leave me

(No, dont leave me)

Please dont leave me

I always say how i dont need you

But its always gonna come right back to this

Please dont leave me (No, Dont leave me)

I always say how i dont need you,

But its always gonna come right back to this,

Please dont leave me,

Please, Please dont leave me.

AMNESIA

2009-05-07T08:18:00.000-07:00

Isang Napaka WEIRD na pangyayari

ang naranasan ko limang pitong oras ang nakaraan.

Nasubukan mo na bang magising pagkatapos ng isang mahabang panaginip, ung panaginip na tila totoo, at ng pagkagising mo, para bang wala ka talagang alam kung anung nangyayari sayo??

Hindi man kayo maniwala ngunit para sa ilang segundo ng ako ay nagising kaninang mga bandang alas-singko ng hapon, ay hindi ko talaga alam kung SINO AKO. Hindi naman ako dumating s punto na tiananong ko kung anung pangalan ko at lahat, ngunit mga sampung minuto ang nakalipas para maalala ko ang mga kasulukuyang nangyayari. EWAN KO kung ano ang nangyari sa akin.

Pagkagising ko, napatunganga lang ako sa pintuan ng aking silid, gamit ang buong lakas na meron sa akin ng oras na iyon, inaalala ko kung nasan ako, ano ng ang nagyayari, at ano a ang aking gagawin.

Napalingon sa kalendaryo na nakasabit sa dingding malapit sa aking cabinet, at doon nga nakita sa kalendaryo kong Chinese, na kasalukuyang Mayo na.

Pagkatapos masdan ang aking kwarto, para bang, may nag-inject sa utak ko, na narito ako sa Maynila, isang estudyante at nag-aaral sa UP manila, nagssummer class.

Nang naalala ko ito, iniisip ko agad kung ano ang mga subject na papasukan ko ngayon., at biglang bumilis ang mga pangyayari., dagli akong tumayo at inabot ang aking cellphone.

5:30 na!!

Kailangan ko ng mag-ayos para sa school!

...Teka! ang liwanag ah. gising na kaya ang iba?

naglalakad ako pababa sa dining ng.. sa hindi ko maipaliwanag na paraan.,

BUMALIK AKO SA KATINUAN...

at hanggang sa ngayon hini parin ako makapaniwala na naranasan ko ang MOMENTARY AMNESIA.

weird talaga?!

pero paano kaya pag natuluyan ako??

haha =))

haaaayyy.. wag naman sana..

kawawa kayo.
*wink!

Heart-toHearts and Cribs!

2009-05-06T07:14:00.000-07:00

COCKCADOODLEDOO!!

sabi ng manok sa States

TITILAOKKK!

says the Filipino Chicken

*wink*

Whew!

The day has been tiring!
Though after HUM, there were no classes, I got to stay in the campus area up to 4:30.

That is because I need to invest in my Favor Bank:

I wanted to share some homemade BANANA-CARROT-BLUEBERRY muffin/cupcake to my beloved sisses, brods, and friends. :D

*thank you! thank you for appreciating and savoring it :P

It was time to accompany dear millie to look for her or our or my new 'CRIB' (haha. :D) for next school year. And, true enough, if you got patience, you'll find a LOT!

*any other people who needs a place to stay around the campus. contact Millie and I., we'll make your life easier :P

It was also long over due, my heart-to-heart moments with sistuhr Justine Uriasity. And oh tell me how I love our conversation! :D

Conversation Lines Not-To-Forget:

Carl: Totoo naman...lahat tayo nag gagamitan lang sa buhay

Uriasity: Hindi mo lang alam kung sino ang tunay na nagpapaikot sayo. The slave is the real master so as the master is the real slave.

Carl: Napaka sacrificing nating girls. Hindi sa nagpapakaapi tayo, ngunit ganun lang talaga tayo. :D

Uriasity: Ang sarap nilang Mahalin.

*haha

This is surprising, my first heart-to-heart with Miggy., and yes, it was done spontaneously.

CLNTF:

Miggy: Para sa ngayon Final na tong desisyon ko. Pero hindi ko parin masasabi na hindi ako magsisisi.

Carl:Kung sana lang pwede ibalik ang lahat., gugustuhin mo pa ba?

*so0o much drama

Also, it also high time to see with sisssttterrr Joanness. Nice seeing You again sis!! :D

Other people I met; others hugged; others missed:

CiaCia
Cams
Sandy
Kyla
Gem
Irizh
Trish
Jem
Miggy
Micheal
Pat
Tin

>these people i dont see often :D

hope to bond with them aaaaaggggaaaaiiiinnn.

stil living within a swarm of lawyers

I GO BLAAAH!

2009-05-05T08:15:00.000-07:00

RANDOM CONVERSATION EXCERPTS

BECAUSE I SAY SO

Tom: hahahaha. mean ka din. :D
Carl: and why so?
Tom: because feel ko lang. hehe
Carl: I'm mean because feel mo lang. eh?
Tom: Yup, im the boss!
Carl: says who?
Tom: I say I am the boss! :D

*if only things just go this way bro, if only. :))

KAHULUGAN AT IMPORTANSIYA

Kyla: Lagyan natin ng meaning ung AMP.

Carl: hmm. ano kaya pwede?

Kyla: AMP meaning walang kwentang phrase.

*boink! hehe.

ANG USO NGAYON

Nikki: Napadaan lang ako. HInihintay ko kapatid ko diyan sa PGH.

Carl: Diyan siya nagwwork?

Nikki: Oo, PT. Masbata sa akin.

Carl: ah...

Nikki: Hihingi akong allowance. Yan ang uso ngayon eh. Masbata na nagbibigay.

*ngekngoks!

**take note bro.nikki is reviewing for Bar exams on Sept. :))

unti-unti nanamang nagkakulay...

WHYEEEEE?!?!?!

2009-05-04T01:11:00.000-07:00

I hate what I'm feeling right NOW!

It's not Hate.
It's not Bitterness.
It's not Jealousy.
It's not freaking Love.
It's not Excitement.
It's not Laziness.
It's not Nervousness.
It's not.. It's not.. DARN!

I dont even know what it is!

CRAP!!

Masyado nang nagiging routinary ang LAHAT.

Naisip ko, kung hindi pa siguro dumating mga relatives ko, ung mga kids specially., Siguro bagot na bagot na ako sa lahat ng mga pangyayari ngayong summer.

I wake up by 5:30.
School from 7 to 12.
Home by lunch. or so, sometimes after a lunch sa Rob with Pat (OT)
Sleep until 4 or 5.
Dinner.
Whatever that could eat my time until I need to sleep again until 12 or sometimes even 2 am.

My communication lines are always open. but dang it doesnt even add something different to my life.

Ewan Ko BA.

Hindi Ko alam.

Naguguluhan.

Nalilito.

May kulang nga ba sa BUHAY ko??
haha
drop that :D

but seriously,, dahil lang ba walang thrill??

sabi nga ni Joms

thrill:

something that will make your heartbeat like a drumroll.

dahil ba walang ganun?

hindi eh.. it's more than just that., i am sure.
I feel something new.
I know that I've noticed this too before with a close friend.
She confessed this to me one time.
It's that feeling of hers, rooted from her attitude that makes people sometimes scared?.
(oh how should I explain?!)
EWAN. Basta parang ganyan.

Pero ano nga ba talaga ito?

Isa lang alam ko.

BASTA

NAKAKAPAGOD

BRILLIANT KIDS

2009-05-01T06:11:00.000-07:00

MOMENTOUS MOMENTS WITH KIDS

(Part II)

MMK #4

"THE ANSWER"

Gino: Is Violence ever the answer?
Carl: To what?
Gino: To everything.
Liao. No Gino. It's LOOOOOOVVVVVVVE

(hahahaha.. kids do know a lot!)

MMK#5

"SLAP ON MY FACE"

Gino: I have a schedule on everything.
Tita M: oh really? Listen Liao.
Gino: Yah, it's what my pops put up on me. It's a good thing.

...it's for Discipline...
and Liao you must have schedule too, your not disciplined!

(kaapppaaaoooo!!! Gino goes Shaman! hehe)

MMK #5

"JOKETIME"

Gino: Why does the pen go with the airforce?
People in the dining table: WHY?
Gino: Because He's a PILOT!!

(haha. got ya!)

Gino: Why did the King measure his subjects?
People in the dining table: WHY?
Gino: Because He's the RULER!!

OH!! KIDS do OUTWIT ME! ;D

2009-05-01T05:27:00.000-07:00

MOMENTOUS MOMENTS YESTERDAY

(speaking in yesterday's timeframe)

Today is SocSci 2nd Depex exam... and I haven't dinished reading and memorizing the powerpoint yet..YIKES! Cram!

(audience: GC! why memorize?)

Well, the because the previous exam is like

"rewrite everything in the powerpoint in essay form."

haha..

HUM done by 9:10. 20mins early. =)

and my socsci readings are lost! Gaaah!!

EXAM over!

Is it a good thing or bad?

The exam turned out to be matching type and true or false.

Still it doesnt mean that I am safe.

Anyway, was suppose to go to WildSONs at 3pm.

But relatives arrived so, needed to go home.

Got home about 11:30 and found two of my favorite kids at home.

ATHALEA (liao) 10 yrs. old

GINO 8 yrs old

Ahhhh!! What joy! :P

Ate lunch at mcdo's. (coz the kids wanted so).

1st momentous moment with kids (MMK)

"ATE MODE"

Carl: liao!! what did you do to Gino??

Liao: none!

Carl: Why did you pinch him? Liao ah! Hurting others isnt good. Ok?

Rested, took a nap back at home. Kids in my room. :D

while all the oldies had their therapeutical massage.

6 pm. AI time.

amazed that these kids are faithful fans of the show. hehe

anyway, bye Matt!

Off to Tramway for dinner.

Gino, liao and I chose to stay at Uncle greg's pick-up..

enjoyed the ride at the back.

exposing our faces to QC's filthy air.

didnt want to stay at the back but for the sake of the kids.

2nd MMK

"JOY RIDE"

Carl: Liao and Gino, sit down. Ok?

Gino: all right.

Liao: My hair is flowing!!! Weeee!!!

(hahahaha. :P)

ate too much!

3rd MMK

TINGGALING

special guest: Uncle Waga

..on our way back home, now in Uncle W's car.

Liao: Uncle, do you know what's tinggaling?

Uncle W: Nope, what is it?

Liao: Gino tell him

Gino showing Uncle W the crazy sign language

Uncle G laughing

Liao: and we have a song for you!

Uncle G: oh really? ok, let me hear it.

Liao and Gino:

"MY UNCLE HAS TINGGALING-NGALING, TINGGALING-NGALING TINGGALING-NGALING. MY UNCLE HAS TINGGALING-NGALING, DING DONG!!"

Uncle G and I laughed to our hearts content.

and this song has been the soundtrack until we got home.

I love these two!!

cant wait. haha. :P

2009-04-30T06:36:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS A BLAST!!!

wow! I DISCOVERED SOMETHING REALLY NEW ABOUT ME!

( Audience: What is it?? )

The GREATEST FEELING THAT I DONT WANT TO FEEL is.................

The BLOATED Feeling!

haha. :D

Ever Since that day I was able to eat EVERYTHING I wanted to my heart's content.

I PROMISED myself to fill up my stomach ONLY up to 80% of my Stomach

(wahahaha. as if you can gauge)

Well, Yes, dear audience, I can feel iiiittt..

hahaha

ANYWAY,

as I said this day has been a TOTAL blast!

so, Im tremendously TIRED

I cant share the whole experience now.

But I will.

tomorrow.

hehe

ayt!

2009-04-29T06:12:00.001-07:00

SONG # 1!!!

(This blog is for today. Since the previous id for yesterday. haha)

I just want to share this song for today.
I wonder why this?? hmmmm...

Thinking of YOU

Katy Perry

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest oneI still got the seed

You said move on

Where do I goI guess second best

Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer

In the middle of winter

Like a hard candy

With a surprise center

How do I get better

Once I've had the best

You said there's

Tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips

I taste your mouth

He pulled me in

I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into...

You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes

Oh won't you walk through

And bust in the door

And take me away

Oh no more mistakes

Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

How Tuesday Went.

2009-04-29T05:25:00.000-07:00

Napapablog ako dahil sa isang tao..
=))

HTW

yeah I rested for a day..

didn't touch the comp.. I felt so lazy to do so..

hehe..nopee..actually I felt kinda sick..

Okay, so..

this is hang-over watching The Soup.

hahahaha... =))

I only slept 3-5am yesterday,

and that made my head like being hit by a hammer for the entire morning..

So as soon as I got home, I slept.. that was 3-6pm..

When I woke up, I got down to the office room to get some of my stuff..

As I entered,

I looked at the computer like it was kind of a villain in a old western country movie..

Each of us stared, gazed on the other's eye.

the wind blowing. the birds took their flight.

Then that soundtrack started to play...

You know the usual soundtrack played in this kind of scene..

Turning my back...ready to pull out my gun... slowly, slowly,

a housemate passed through and turned it on!

OK, so Game OVER. Back to reality.

Went up to my room. Cuddled for a moment (for I was pretentiously sick.. haha)

then.. turned on the radio...

I didn't want to do anything. I didn't want to read, I didnt want to watch, to eat even (ironically I ate a lot.. boink!)...

So I ended up texting my fingers off.. haha..

So who were I texting:

1.Brother 1: So your the one who's broken?
Carl: No, I'm not. Mended but not perfectly.
Brother: enk! EMO!

2. Brother2: here in the apartment now.
Carl: OK. How's the review?
Brother 2: uhhh,,, I actually played DOTA.
Carl: Oh, right! So you think it'll help you sa Bar? Ok, practice more! haha =))

3. Brother 3: Sorry ha
Carl: for what?
Brother 3: wala lang. :)
Carl: ok.ok
Brother 3: :)

4. Carla: Tol, may tatlong exam ako
Carl: Ok,Godbless!
Carla: uy, may prob ako kay ***
Carl: Akala ko ba may exam ka? Magreview ka na lang kaya muna?
Carla: sige na nga

5. Carl. and someone
6. Carl. and another one
7. Carl. and the next one

Ayt, so I think that how it all went yesterday.. after texting till midnight..

I had slept. and amazingly,, for a reason I don't know.. it is the first night I slept so peacefully.
Thanks to ONE up there..

...who is HE?...

that's a secret. ;)

when youve done something that you REALLY HATE!

2009-04-27T07:24:00.000-07:00

I HATE IT!!!

Ok, so this blog would be just full of rants.
Let's see...
Random Order.

1. I really dont like layouting blogs or whatsoever.
its so stressful.
why bother?
when in fact i just want to blog.. eh... right?
>>i did it because Kyla said so.
she's not my boss or anything
neither is she my mom
nor my professor, who I need to please
it's just that it's nakakainis na.. hahahaha.. Love Kyla! :D

2. Why do I need to report on the Plot of a story in class that everyone read?
What are we? elementary students??
Need to know the introduction, point of attact, complication, conflict, denoument, resolution
of a short story?
Come'on everyone read the story (or must have read)
and everyone understood... (I presume)
>>Sir JPM, could we just go straight to the discusion!?
*I havent done my part of the reporting yet. gaaahh!!

3. Why must I learn about Human Evolution over and over again when I don't believe in it?
What's the matter with you people?!
I get your point,, You guys come from APEs ok,, so why the need of spreading your alamat?!

4. Why should I be the one to convince those two orientees?
OK, I'm Ms. FC head.....
.......................no point in ranting on this.................... I lose! :))

5. Why can't just people accept some failures in their lives and need consoling every second of the day. I'm your Friend but PLEASE, it's not only You who have angsts.

.........but I still Love you Friend.. Go on. :)
=))

6. Why are some people so addicted to *a**k**i**n*m*g*?!
I'm affected by your untoward attitude.
PLS.PLS. Behave yourself.
I could get you in jail.
=))

7. Why can't just all people be satisfied with what they have?
I strongly encourage you to read "THE CASE OF THE PRISON-MONGER"
by Hama Tuma
"Great Expectations make Frustrated Men"

8. I am not the Keeper of my Brother...

9. Why can't just Greek love Greeks?! Why so much hatred?!
So0o0o0o much exclusivity!

10. Why do those people think they KNOW who I am?
well.after all..

They WONT bother if your NOT SOMEONE!.

showbiz

LABLYP

2009-04-26T01:38:00.000-07:00

Katatapos ng Church Service at

Nagkausap kami ng isang highschool bestfriend ko sa pamamagitan ng teknolohiya.

Pangalanan na lang natin siyang Carla.

Classmate ko na siya simula elementary.

Ngunit nung highschool na lang kami naging magkabarkada at naging matalik na magkaibigan.

Yun ay sa kadahilanang, akala nami'y ang aming personalidad ay lubos na kabaliktaran ng isa.

Para sa akin si Carla at ang 'kanyang' grupo ung maiingay sa class.

Sila ung medyo bully sapagkat ang kanilang mga mommy ang maeksena sa school.

Kumbaga Stage-mothers at sila naman ang Stage-kids.

Ultimo mga lalaki napapatahimik nila sa kanilang pagsigaw pa lamang ng pangalan nila.

Dagli-dagling lumalayo ang mga schoolmates ko noon kapag nariyan na sila.

Mga bullies kung tatawagin.

Nabanggit din sa akin ni Carla kung ano ang tingin nila sa akin at sa 'aking' grupo.
Sabi niya ay, nung elementary, kami daw yung tipong 'masyadong babae'
at laging nag-eenglish-english.
Kapag manamit ay pinagsisigawang marami kaming alam sa fashion nung araw
Ang aming grupo daw ay maarte at mahilig pag-usapan ang mga lalake.
Kinikilig sa mga munting bagay lamang at sadyang mahilig tumawa at ngumisi.
Ganoon daw ang aming grupo.

Sa kaalaman naming ito, hindi ito pumigil sa amin para maging kaibigan ang isa't-isa nung highschool.

Mga labing-lima kami mula sa elementary school na nasa I-Carnation nun, hindi naman sa napilitan kami kaya kami ang nagkasama ngunit sadyang tadhana nga lang siguro kaya kami ang naging magkabarkada at hanggang ngayon ay matalik na magkaibigan.

Lumipas ang panahon, at
marami ng nangyari sa bawat isa, maraming kaalaman na naidagdag sa isipan, maraming
pag-uusap na siyang pinagmulan ng maraming kaisipan, mga relasyon na nabuo at nawasak.
Lahat ng ito na hinubog sa aming katauhan.

Nagsimula ang pag-uusap ng aking mahal na kaibigan sa kamustahan.

"Ok lang. Ikaw?"
"Ok lang din."

Yan ang karaniwang heading ng aming conversation.

Hindi nagtagal nang siya ay nangamusta nanaman ng status ng aking "lablyp" (lovelife)
(haay, isang salitang ayaw na ayaw kong banggitin)
Ang walang-kamatayang sagot ko ang siyang ibinigkas

"Wala akong ganun." sabay tawa at naniniwalang mangungulit siya ngunit hindi ako pipilitin pagkalipas ng kunting pangungulit.

Ngunit sa pagkakataong ito, hindi ganoon ang nangyari. Bakas sa kanyang tono ng pananalita ang dismaya, hindi inis, ngunit kalungkutan na nagsasabing hindi ko na siya kinukwentuhan ng kahit ano ukol dito simula ng 4thyear.

Ewan ko nga ba, ako man sa sarili ko ay ayoko ng abalahin pa ang sarili para magkwento.

Hindi na ako tulad ng batang nakilala niya nung elementary. Sabi nga nya, ang mga babaeng puro lalaki na lamang ang pinagkwekwentuhan.

Ako ay kabaliktaran na ngayon. Siguro dahil sa... incidenteng iyon.

Binanggit ko na lahat ng mga taong alam kong sa kanyang judgment ay involve dun nga sa tinatawag niyang "lovelife"ko.
Nang tapos ko nang sabihin sa kanya, ang pakiramadam ko'y nagpasa ako ng mahigit-kumulang na kinseng resume.
May mga pangalan, importanteng impormasyon, mga iba ay may litrato ang iba ay wala.

Sa bawat pagtanggap niya ng isang resume, nagsabi siya ng mga comments na hindi ko lubusang hinayaan manatili sa aking pag-iisip, pinakinggan ko lamang at pagkatapos ay sadyang lumipad sa kawalan. Pagkatapos makita ang lahat, ngumisi siya at sinabing..

"Collect and collect then select ha?" patawa niyang sinabi
"Tama!" at ako ay tumawa rin.

Ngunit alam kong hindi totoo iyon at kailanman ay hindi gagawin.

Hanggang sa tumunton na kami sa isang tanong na walang sawa nilang ibinabato sa akin

"Bakit mo ba ayaw magka-Boyfriend? Magkaroon ng stable na relationship"
sinabi niya sa tonong para bang first time niya lang tinanong ngunit sa katotohona'y higit na sa bilang na aking maalala.

Iniba ko ang sagot sa pagkakataong ito, isang masmalinaw na sagot kumpara sa mga nakaraan.
Sa pinaka-inocenteng tono, sabi ko ay

"Dahil hindi ako pang-ganun."

natahimik siya at pagkaraan ng kunting panahon

napangisi siya at sinabing
"may ganun? so ano yung lahat ng mga yun, fling-fling lang? ano ka ba? Walang mawawala sayo pag susubukan mo lang. At paano mo malalaman kung sino nga ba ang para talaga sayo kung hindi mo susubukan?"

Gusto kong ipaliwanang na
MERON.
Merong nawawala sayo sa bawat
relasyon na pinapasukan mo at naglalaho.
Ngunit ayoko ng magpaliwanag pa,
sawang-sawa na ako.
Hindi ko na rin nahanap pa ang lakas
para ipaliwanag na may darating para sa iyo, hindi mo na kailangan pang pumasok
sa isang relasyon para malaman kung siya na nga ba ang para sa iyo o hindi.
Gusto ko ding sabihing hayaan na lang natin
ang tadhana ang magparating sa atin
ng taong iyon.
Huwag natin siyang tuksuhin para lamang madaliin niya ang
proseso.
Dahil tayo lamang ay nagsasayang ng oras, lakas at panahon.
Kung
HINDI pa, hindi pa.
Bata pa lamang tayo, marami pang mga bagay sa mundo na nais
magpakilala sa atin. At sa kadahilanang pilit nating hinahanap ang taong
iyon, nakakaligtaan natin ang mga magagandang bagay na siya sanang magtutungo
sa atin sa kanya.
Marami pa akong gustong sabihin, at alam kong kukulangin pa sa mahigit
bente-kwatrong oras pag ako ay lubusang nagpaliwanag.
Laging nag-uumapaw ang mga ideya sa
aking isipan pag kami ay humahantong sa ganitong usapan.

Ngunit ako ay pagod na.

Ang lakas ko upang sabihin ang mga ito ay ubos na.

Wala na.

Ako ay tumahimik na lamang.
at sa kabila ng lahat ng malakas na apoy sa aking dibdib.
ang nasabi lamang ng munti kong bibig ay

"...dahil ayoko pa carla,,, ayoko pa..."

HUMANITIES 1 sa UP Manila and it's hidden objective

2009-04-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

Ang aking unang blog sa wikang Filipino.

Narito sa aking lap ngayon, ang papel kung saan nakasulat ang mga

(*commercial: nagtanong pa ako sa mga tao sa YM kung ano ang filipino ng objective. haha)

layunin ng kursong Humanities 1 sa UP Manila ni Ser JPaul Manzanilla

at ito ang nakalagay.

General Objectives:

to explore and analyze imaginative literature in the various forms and discover the elements of artistry that characterize each literary genre.
to examine representatives world views in literary texts and encourage students to expand their own perspectives especially in light of Philippines realities.

Specific Objectives:

Integrative study of elements of each literary genre and the content of the literary form
Discussion of literary and aesthetic values and how these are imbricated in moral, economic, social, political and cultural values
Analysis of theme centering on numerous issues of subject formation by focusing on the discourse of literary representation

Ayan, binasa mo ba ang mga layunin na iyon?

Dapat hindi mo na binasa

dahil sa katotohanan ay ito lamang yun

"magbasa ka!
At intindihin mong mabuti at ng malaliman ang lahat ng binabasa mo."
Hindi pa ako tapos sa kursong ito.
Meron pang nalalabing humigit kumulang na tatlong linggo.
Ngunit sa nakikita ko ngayon ito ang nais iparating sa akin ng HUMANITIES 1.
Simula ng mattangap ko ang mahigit sa isang ream na babasahin, ito ang kasalukuyang ibinubugbog sa araw-araw kong pamumuhay ngayon.
ang pagbabasa.
Tinignan ko nga naman ang aking nakaraan at madami akong naalala na siyang nagpapatunay ng kahalagahan ng pagbabasa.
Ang aking nanay na sumisigaw bawat oras na kami ay nasa bahay at walang ginagawang takdang-aralin o gawaing bahay
"You READ!!! It's better than watching cartoons or playing!"
"eh it's boring naman kasi!!"
"Ay naku! You READ kitdi!"
At kaya naman, sa gulang na siyam, nabasa ko na ang buong set ng Childcraft Encylopedia na siyang dinala ng impostor na Santa Claus (hinire ng aking mommy at daddy nung araw) sa aming bahay nun.
Pati ang Groiler Encyclopedia, ngunit dahil sa murang kaisipan, hindi lahat yun ay nabasa ko ang mga pahina lamang kung saan nakinitaan ko ng magaganda at matitingkad na mga litrato. (malamang diba, dahil kung hindi ako ay isang henyo na ngayon).
At marami pang sari-saring libro. Tulad na lamang ng Nancy Drew, Hardy Boys, Sherlock Holmes, Seventeen, Diksyunaryo, Teksbook, Inventions, at marami pang iba.
Ako ay palabasa. Isang batang tunay na kakambal ng libro. Ngunit ng ako ay sampung taon na,sadyang naglaho ng mabilis ang aking katauhang iyon.
Hindi ko alam kung anung nagyari, pinipilit ko siyang tawaging muli ngunit, sa bawat pagbalik niya, siya ay bumibisita lamang.
at NGAYON sa tulong ng espiritu ng kursong HUMANITIES 1., siya ay muling nabubuhay..at sa aking laking gulat maligaya ko siyang tinatanggap at pinapanatili kailanman.
Kaya MARAMING SALAMAT HUM 1!!!

layout.layout.layout!!

2009-04-25T01:01:00.000-07:00

waaahhh!!!

ive been editing my layout for almost 3 hours now.
this is exactly what i didnt want.
customizing pages..

all i wanted was to write.to blog.and nothing else. or nothing much of another.
but then. OK.
kyla told me to do so,,,,

then i tried

and see where it got me.. to the original template.

hahaha

well.. i'll get some help soon..

and

again..

we'll see. :D

Notice to the Public

2009-04-25T00:03:00.000-07:00

It's not a poem

as the author (ehem.ehem) says

it's a Short Fictional Story

charlyn lalwet: visit my blogspot
ok?!

mao pineda: i did

galing m magsulat ah

poem b ung start?

charlyn lalwet: ung pinakamahaba?
nope

mao pineda: oo

anu un?

charlyn lalwet: fiction short story
hehe

mao pineda: i was thinking it was a poem kasi parang ang independent ng mga lines from each other

it looks like a poem! hahaha

charlyn lalwet: its only centered that's why it looks like poem
haha
it's a fiction story
one that reflected what happened to me for the past 2 months

mao pineda: hnd. parang poem tlga kasi hnd xa flowy na parang story. parang poen xa na choppy pero nagkwekwento

ung ganun

charlyn lalwet: ah
i knoiw na why you say its a poem
because it's lyrical
yung parang it you won't really get what it truly means
kasi it's not literal

mao pineda: hnd. ung structure. kasi db pag story parang nagfloflow. tgnan m ung sau parang independent bodies ung bawat line. para sakin. kaya un mukha xang poem para sakin

ung first part parang story

sa middle parang poem

ok.

what do you think??

a doze of my everyday fiction. "THIS BEGGAR"

2009-04-24T06:50:00.000-07:00

He was about only three meters away.

I couldnt help but to glance at him for a moment.

He had been in that place, succumbed for maybe years.

It is where he finds joy, contentment and peace.

As I look at the features of his body..it lead me to a conclusion that he hadn't eaten for days, or even weeks.

But inspite of this, He had that strength, that vigor to look so closely to people who had passed by his own place.

He intricately examined each one who waited in that waiting area.

And at the moment he stares at one person. Believe me, that person won't pass by leaving without pain and hurt.

It's been almost three hours since the time I've been waiting for that magical ride.

The ride that will bring me to the majestic palace of my very own Prince, my special One, my Love.

One who I hadn't known yet, but I will, when He comes.

It will be my heart speaking from then, and not my mouth.

It his heart and mine that would converse, and will just take the embodiment of our souls together and bring us to that palace.

The palace that He prepared so long ago.

From the time I felt my first heartbeat in this world.

For the meantime, a lot had spoken to me.

They've used the language of Humans.

the one that is cognitive.

For the past thirty minutes, three guys spoken to me.

I enjoyed their company as I was waiting.

They've spoken much about their life, telling tales of their own, adventures, experiences they've gone through, they spoke about dreams, ambitions, fears, losses, victories, hope and love.

Each one tried to talk to my dear heart.

But it never replied.

I wasn't hurying at all.

I enjoyed their company, they enjoyed and loved mine.

I gigled when they joked.

I laughed loudly when their stories are hilarious.

I dropped a tear when they were sad.

I shared their sorrows and pain.

They were friends to me.

But I wasn't so to them.

I felt and knew I was more.

but still my heart isn't just awake.

It was only in that thirty minutes that the person at the wall, started staring at me.

and after that thirty minutes that he stood and spoke.

I wanted to draw out respect for this man, but it was so difficult for me as he started to speak.

He started, this "speech' of his, by saying:

I have become just one of that species.

that species of women, that have been despised by people that who think that in their purest conscience they are innocent, hurting no one in the cause of love.

I became that person who've become so low, being friendly to everyone and not turning my back on anyone who needs help.

I became that girl who graced myself to men that I barely knew, feeling that they are damaged and needed to be fixed.

I was a person who was full of paradox;

had high standards, but embraced the low

had unreachable happiness, but giggled at the lamest jokes

had desire for a lot of things, but was satisified with just a meager.

There were a lot of things he babbled about me.

At first I was shocked,amused at times, but usually angered.

This man, after all, just saw me for only thirty inutes.

I know and I believe that for only that, I could ay everything he had spoken about me was a lie.

and indeeduntil then...

that beggar starved and I waited

I still AM

2009-04-23T09:27:00.001-07:00

Ive been contemplating about my 'chepers status'

(if you dont know this..well, you must know.haha)

anyway,, back to the serious mode..

after all. these chepers around.

I could still say I am not non-sawi.

there is still that element..

until then..

amp!

oh well.

they say.,

don't jump into conclusions

don't judge a book by its cover

i say.,

don't say you know all when your still at the beginning,and haven't seen the end...

you get what i mean..

haaay

(filipino translation of sigh.haha)

darn. :P

Liberation

2009-04-23T09:09:00.000-07:00

ok.this is it.

haha..

i really love my friends' blogs..

sige na nga.. ill name them..

KYLA and JOANNE.

ayan.. (i know how you loved publicity. *wink)

You both are so cute forever!!

These two when they write..

are like the two characters in the story I just read yesterday..

'Red Wall'by Sara Chin.

Joanne would be Jill

Kyla would be the 'I' (our professor said we could only just assume it is Sara Chin)

One is so expressive of her thoughts in quite a formal way..

a galan way. i may say. not so direct. you must discover things as you read.

the other so freely focusing on minor things..

telling stories that goes beyond what her tongue can tell.

her thoughts screaming

truly advocating the immensity of what she really feels..

so who is who??

see for yourself.

doesnt really matter much.

haha

Liberation indeed!

Found!

2009-04-23T08:33:00.000-07:00

Great!

Finally, something id really enjoy online.
its because of two close friends..
why i am able to blog in here right now..
well,, more because of one.
i wanted to start blogging ever since..
but
when i had my multiply account.
it came to me.. that it was somehow a strenuous thing to do.
with the contacts and all..
it wasnt really a place you would free yourself.
you know, a very prominent reason why people want to blog is that because they want to find a place that they would just express themselves
scribble some notes into air, permamnently etching it there.
in multiply, it just isnt so..

i knew about blogspot for long..
but didn't bother much..
until thess close friends indeed opened it up to me once again.
and now here i am..'writing'
i know for a fact that id get tired of all these 'social netork sites'..as i call it..
friendster, multiply, facebook..and such..
but i think.. this is one that i wouldnt get tired of..
it doesnt at all fall under that bracket even.

maybe this is that 'place' i could truly etch my thoughts in the air..
and again

well.,
lets see.. :D